Wednesday, 2 October 2019

Angin berlalu pergi

Assalamualaikum and Hi :) Its been awhile geng. Tak tahu macam mana nak describe perasan sekarang ni tapi yang pasti bila Kuna terlalu sedih atau happy mesti akan ada coretan disini. Singgah dekat sini untuk ingatan suatu hari nanti bila dah berjaya boleh tengok balik macam mana kehidupan seorang Kuna sebelum berjaya. Gais, im in a phase where I don't know what to do and how to do to achieve something. you know what i mean right? Fasa dimana kau ada impian dalam fikiran tapi taktahu mcm mana nak jadikan ia kenyataan dan kesukaran untuk jayakan tu hari hari ada cabaran dia ya sama ada tekanan dari orang sekeliling, tekanan diri sendiri dan juga orang luar and Kuna dekat disini cuba sedaya upaya untuk nampak happy depan semua orang. Its suck ya i rasa sesak nafas kejap and i cried eyery single night. That time i sumpah down gila tahap bila duduk sorang-2 I akan nangis and sedih. I taknak cakap dengan orang sebab masa tu I rasa i useless sangat and susahkan semua orang. I simpan semua sendiri for 3 weeks sampai i dah tak tahan sangat then i told my bestfriend. Susahnya jadi adult ni semua benda nak kena fikir. kadang-kadang i dah give up dengan hidup tau tak haha i dah macam ha lantaklah. The only things that makes me happy bila i jumpa my favourite person. I tengok je diaa pastu nak nangis sebab entahlah sebak kejap kot haha you tahu kan feeling bila you acah kuat  mcm takde apa jadi tu tapi sebenarnya you ada problem? haha I tak suka susahkan orang I suka simpan je. Pastu sampai sekarang problem tu tak settle lagi. 

 Right now, i dah mula rasa okay Kuna you have to do something. you have to make a move. Sampai bila nak sedih sorang sorang & takde jalan penyelesaian kan? Better start slowly tanpa ada orang tahu and bila dah berjaya nanti baru orang tahu. I percaya pada rezeki & juga percaya pada kalau kita usaha kita akan dapat hasil dia. InshaAllah. But the problem is how? How to make a move? How to do first? Macam mana nak yakinkan diri yang I boleh sebenarnya? *Sigh* Okay let make a short list what I want in my life in general lah.

  • Stable job
  • Pay bills without worry abt anything
  • Get a new car
  • Perfect & nice figure
  • Stress free 


As you gais know im currently doing my part time studies. It was okay back then but at a certain point I rasa I kena start kerja untuk support bayar my tuition fees and all stuff. And also at the same time kereta I rosak so i kena beli baru. In order to buy a new car mestilah kena kerja dulu kan? So major problem I kerja & kereta & confident level. so how geng?

I think what I have to do is:


  • Update my cover letter/resume  (by this week)
  • Check due date for an assignment & start to do some research (2 weeks)
  • Make sure to get a job & secure it! (by 1st November InshaAllah)
  • Save all my money to buy a new car :)(October 2021)
  • Change my eating habit slowly but surely it will be okay. Don't worry hehe (Starting by this year)

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